My post just got deleted by the backspace key. I guess it wasn't meant to be.
It's okay. All I needed to say was this. I am a failure. A man of God said it best,"...I have created the Grand Canyon of failure in my heart. But I think God sees the spaciousness inside me in a different way than I do. I think He sees it as more room in which to unleash an ocean of grace. "
I hurt myself again with my lust. I feel dead inside. My best intentions are suicidal. I want what will kill me. I need rescue . God please change my heart. Words can't express the depth of my emptiness. Fill me.